Vision

DAY 9

on a more serious note...
contemplation on the subject of mistakes? the opposite of mistake is correct/ion.

i'm taking a leap here, so please bear with me! if i believe that a mistake is a bad thing & that it leads to failure, mockery, & death, then, essentially, i shouldn't be. every time my soul sees a mistake, i should amend the connotation.

what is the correction? i'm not a mistake! there is no such thing as a mistake!

how would life be, right now, if i could eliminate the "mistakes" that i have made? i'm sure half the earths population wouldn't be alive today! this could include the people that you love, because they could potentially be someone Else's mistake!

perhaps i'm being just a little extreme here, but really, i have to be!

my mistakes/corrections have the absolute potential to lead to:

(a moment of clarity if you please - correction in love! always!, but if done in anger or selfishness or low self esteem, there is always an opportunity for reaching (effort on your part) toward an equilibrium.)

success because i am not afraid to live!
praise because i know how much it cost to find the cure!
& life because there is growth & opportunity for truth that gives me wings!

there is hope as long as there is life & the hope is that there are no mistakes!

this is a very controversial topic because, as i write this, i find a struggle within. one that says; 'you have it all wrong,' & another that says; 'you might be onto something.'

one more motivation - god does not make mistakes!

in chaos there is perfect harmony.

Vision

DAY 9

birthing...

i started my day contemplating the processes around giving birth, & the reason for this contemplation was..., that i became afraid that i would not be able to follow through & complete the journey that i had started.
i came to the awesome encouraging realization that once the birthing process has begun it MUST be completed.
the whole earth in all of its created state of glory resounds this truth.

it can be a huge burden to carry, this bringing forth of life from deep within your soul & spirit. sometimes it seems as if this very life that is bursting to get out is the same life that is resisting the uncovering life force fighting to stay hidden in sunless darkness.

how is it that life wants to & not at the same time?

einsteins theory of relativity - the dimensions of time, space, & matter constitute a continuum (an unbroken mass or tissue or course of). they come into being at precisely the same instant! neither can exist in the absence of the other!

                                         


in a moment we can be guilty & innocent, willingly or unwillingly.

living mercifully!

Vision

DAY 8

portrait n. likeness of person or animal made by drawing, painting, photography, etc.; graphic description.

graphic. of drawing, painting, engraving, etching, etc.; vividly descriptive, lifelike; of writing on surface or in fracture; of diagrams or symbolic curves. greek (graphe - write).

vivid.(of light or colour) bright, intense, glaring, (of mental faculty or impression) clear, vigorous, strongly marked, as has a imagination, gave a description, have a recollection of the scene. latin (vivere - live).

 as described by the concise oxford dictionary.

capture a likeness of a person???

graphically engraving an impression marked by your imagination to describe your recollection of life in someone or something?

sjoe! that's a mouth full to just to say there are no words to describe the connection that happens between the recorder & the recorded! it happens in a moment! unplanned, without force, in the natural flow of LIFE!

love it too much!!!

go on, enjoy the moment by moment recordings that flow between you... & you, or someone else.

loving life!

cleoniki vanos

Vision

DAY 7

how do i love thee? let me count the ways

how do i love thee? let me count the ways.
i love thee to the depth & breadth & height
my soul can reach, when feeling out of sight
for the ends of being & ideal grace.
i love thee to the level of every day's
most quiet need, by sun & candlelight.
i love thee freely, as men strive for right;
i love thee purely, as they turn from praise.
i love thee with the passion put to use
in my old griefs, & with my childhood's faith.
i love thee with a love i seemed to lose
with my lost saints, - i love thee with the breath,
smiles, tears, of all my life! - & if God choose,
i shall but love thee better after death.

elizabeth barrett browning

i dedicate this message to myself... & to you!
let's stop this violence that we commit against ouselves!!!
how many times have we longed for someone to love us, when in the true reality of life & being it is only i who can love me?
to thine own self be true!!!
the journey of loving oneself, let it begin & continue higher, deeper & wider! let this love be a daily need like sunshine & water to the flowers of the field. may we be free to love ourselves in truth.

 in a moment of grace i caught myself in this self loathing condition.
 i stopped & surrendered myself to being,
 because i am love.

kleoniki vanos

Vision

DAY 6

i decided that it was not wisdom that enabled poets to write their poetry, but a kind of instinct of inspiration, such as you find in seers and prophets who deliver all their sublime messages without knowing in the least what they mean - sokrates

true wisdom comes to each of us when we realize how little we understand about life, ourselves, & the world around us - sokrates

i know nothing except the fact of my ignorance - sokrates

if all misfortunes were laid in one common heap whence everyone must take an equal portion, most people would be contented to take their own & depart - sokrates

the unexamined life is not worth living - sokrates

apply yourself both now & in the next life. without effort, you cannot be prosperous. though the land be good, you cannot have an abundant crop without cultivation - plato

courage is a kind of salvation - plato

courage is knowing what not to fear - plato

for two days i've been contemplating sokrates & plato. these writings are supreme in depth.

at first i saw,  then i looked & realized that i couldn't see. now i'm learning how to focus & what to focus on.

gifts & talents belong to each one of us! sharing that beauty that comes from deep within has greater impact than a million sad memories . the journey of unveiling vision continues...

Vision

DAY 5

how far can you go? there is no limit!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

frank sinatra - fly me to the moon

fly me to the moon
let me play among the stars
let me see what spring is like
on jupeter & mars
in other words, hold my hand
in other words, darling, kiss me

fill my heart with song
and let me sing for ever more...

diana ross - it's my turn

i can't cover up my feelings
in the name of love
or play it safe
for a while that was easy
and if living for myself
is what i'm guilty of
go on & sentence me
i'll still be set free

it's my turn
to see what i can see
i hope you'll understand
this time's just for me

because it's my turn
with no apologies
i've given up the truth
to those i've tried to please

but now it's my turn
if i don't have all the answers
at least i know i'll take my share of chances
ain't no use of holding on
when nothing stays the same

so i'll let it rain
'cause the rain aint gonna hurt me
and i'll let you go
though i know it wont be easy

and now it's my turn
to try & find my way
and if i should get lost
at least i'll own today...

frank sinatra - my way

... for what is man, what has he got?
if not himself, then he has naught
to say the things he truly feels & not the words of one who kneels
the record shows i took the blows & did it my way!

have you read "the secret garden" by frances hodgson burnett? i read it a long time ago, & this is the image i'd like to sketch for us...

what are all these words about?

the owner of the garden experienced a great disappointing tragedy, that resulted in unbearable pain & in response he locked the beautiful garden away. he ran, tried to forget. the garden withered in neglect , but it took a tiny little rain drop from an insignificant little girl (in the eyes of those around her) to ignite the flow of life back into the ugly garden. the result was beauty & that life flowed into countless lives, changing them forever.

let us fly dear friend, fly!!!!
escape the death of denial & embrace the growth that comes with pain! dont let anyone or anything shut down your garden or stop you from living your truth!!! and if your garden is in a secret place due to the unbearable pain, dying of neglect, it's never too late. those of you who have known me for more than a day, know that each one of you are contributing to the ceaseless change & growth in my garden. thank you again & again & again!

love, live & be free!

Vision

DAY 4

i thought i saw an Angel & while i was still contemplating the direction of my thoughts i realized that the vision was true! let's keep in touch Angel!

I have been waiting for this moment! now that you're free to see, I can share with you the dreams I have for you.

may your vision never be clouded!
may you rise to heights of new found flight & journey to the truth of love!
may you find warm affection in yourself & grow fond of your weaknesses & strengths!
may you be devoted to the Truth that is in you & may you convey that message of affection to everyone you meet!
may you cling to, delight in, enjoy having, be addicted to & admire the existence of the gift of life!

there is freedom within you!!!

Vision

DAY 3

A study of changing thoughts and attitudes...

How do you respond to change?

The idea of change can be quite daunting, but it can also be an exciting opportunity for a life altering experience.

Learning new ways of thinking, seeing, feeling, and processing life leads to LIBERATION from fear. Fear could be defined as the weaknesses and insecurities that plague us and keep us from experiencing life as a gift rather than a curse.

I had the privilege of being in the company of great minds and the discussion veered toward the subject of blame-shifting vs. accepting responsibility.

The example used:
Standing in front of a mirror, spraying shaving cream on the mirror, then taking the razor and shaving the mirror will not remove your stubble.

Another example regarding the subject at hand:
Being in an abusive relationship where the other forces their will upon you, and blaming them for the trauma will not lead to growth. However, accepting responsibility, by seeking out the root cause for allowing the abuse, will bring about tremendous growth and ensure that the cycle will no longer be repeated.

The attitude of...
I'm Sorry -  for seeking the problem in you!
Please forgive me -  for not allowing us to grow!
Thank you - for the lessons you taught me!
I love you - you are free!
will go a long way toward the development of personal growth and evolution..

Stretch yourself!
Be honest!
See every day as new and filled with opportunities for new beginnings.

Nature is our best teacher!

Look at the sky, never the same from one moment to the next, the air filled with bird songs that don't have the same melodic ring, yet sound in perfect harmony.
She is constantly growing, changing, sometimes making deep inarticulate sounds in her growing pains, but on she surges, ever removing the creases...  this is the journey of life.

Plato said; a life without growth is not worth living! WOW!

The world changed while I was asleep. I woke up & found that my vision had changed. I felt life's sweet gentle embrace on my cheek while she touched my hair with a whisper, "Keep growing & loving."

Vision

DAY 2

seeing - what a beautiful thing!
seeing through the lens of love - even better!
there is a woman, she works at a local store. for three years now i've been watching her, seeing her. the first time i noticed her she looked bedraggled & forlorn, packing parcels, her eyes cast down. i saw her again this week & that's when i realized that i'd been documenting her beauty in my mind. her hair is died a dark brown now, & through her journey of bandaged brokenness, the loud eyeshadow made its way to her eyelids, red painted nails & plastic beads adorn her beautiful gentle soul. i'm always happy to see her. i want to photograph her.

in loving vision, me.

vision

DAY 1

ever wondered what is your purpose?

three years ago i started consciously asking the question. i verbalized it & the response i got from my inner circle was...

i'm here to glorify god, to show forth his splendour
to make a difference in the world
to be a mother & raise my children
to be a care giver
to get rid of the ego, to become more spiritual
to get anther chance at doing it right this time
karma pay back, punishment for your past sins or blessing for your good deeds
to teach others by your wisdom
and on and on...

nothing i heard, or thought, or read satisfied me.

this week i had the privilege of having several conversations with wonderful individuals who took the time to share with me. who brought their spot light into our conversation & enabled me for the first time to find a voice to say what i had been trying to for so long. this rocketed me into the space of my journey.  dewald,adel, charl, nic, pierre, mark, thank you for you!

my revelation is this (just for the now, i know there will be more): people bring us brightly wrapped packages, gifts, they call them. here is a gift for you, an answer, a solution, a way out. take it, they say, & may it go well with you. goodbye. i don't know what this is, they didn't say, they don't know either. someone gave it to them & they passed it on to me. i have to open it, but like the others i'm scared. what if it's empty, or blows up in my face, or isn't what i'd hoped it would be, or i don't know how to use it, or even worse, i drop it & it breaks? no, it's much safer left alone. the package is violently ignored. but wait! someone happens, they come along, a ray of light breaks through the clouds, & for a moment a spark ignites a tiny rainbow & then it disappears. then someone else happens, & the rainbow light stays longer. i realize i have enough courage now to move toward the thing, face my fear & open the gift that was so brutally ignored, even despised. the journey is not in the recognition from others, but in the recognition of ones self.